Here's something you might enjoy watching...
...what's funny is Trixie taught herself to stand up pretty. She such a goof.
Friday, April 30, 2010
What a week!
This week (and month) has definitely not been the greatest. This week was the hardest one I've had in a long time. Steven's funeral yesterday went well I think. It was so nice to see how many people loved Steven and came to support him and his family...and that was only the people that could make it.
Steven and I graduated together and were close senior year. I remember riding the bus with him to Tech almost everyday and we had so much fun. We always sat in rows next to each other, along with my friend Shannon, and a couple others, and we were always at the front talking with the driver. It was a fun year and I wouldn't trade that year for anything. Our class flower was the Gerbera Daisy and so before the funeral I went and purchased 20 Gerbera Daisies. I passed them out to our classmates, from our graduating class, and they gave them to Wendi after the funeral. I wanted it to be something special we did for Steven and his family, especially Wendi. Sadly, I wasn't able to go to Steven's burial because even though I worked on my exam until 5 in the morning, in hopes to get it done, it didn't get finished. So I gave my Mom one of the extra Gerbera Daisies and asked her to place it on Steven's casket at the burial...(and here's when I start crying)...she came home and told me that the flower I had given her, along with the others our classmates had given Wendi, were placed on Steven's casket, buried and sealed with him in the vault forever. It is something I will never, ever, forget.
So on to something not so sad...that exam I worked on until 5 in the morning...I just found out that I got 136 out of 140 on it...woohoo! A+!
Now I'm just hoping that May will be a better month for the Hanes family. So on the list of what we're hoping will be good news...will Dad get his disability? and will we get the house we want and need? Stay tuned.
Steven and I graduated together and were close senior year. I remember riding the bus with him to Tech almost everyday and we had so much fun. We always sat in rows next to each other, along with my friend Shannon, and a couple others, and we were always at the front talking with the driver. It was a fun year and I wouldn't trade that year for anything. Our class flower was the Gerbera Daisy and so before the funeral I went and purchased 20 Gerbera Daisies. I passed them out to our classmates, from our graduating class, and they gave them to Wendi after the funeral. I wanted it to be something special we did for Steven and his family, especially Wendi. Sadly, I wasn't able to go to Steven's burial because even though I worked on my exam until 5 in the morning, in hopes to get it done, it didn't get finished. So I gave my Mom one of the extra Gerbera Daisies and asked her to place it on Steven's casket at the burial...(and here's when I start crying)...she came home and told me that the flower I had given her, along with the others our classmates had given Wendi, were placed on Steven's casket, buried and sealed with him in the vault forever. It is something I will never, ever, forget.
So on to something not so sad...that exam I worked on until 5 in the morning...I just found out that I got 136 out of 140 on it...woohoo! A+!
Now I'm just hoping that May will be a better month for the Hanes family. So on the list of what we're hoping will be good news...will Dad get his disability? and will we get the house we want and need? Stay tuned.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Well...all I can say is that its been a rough couple of days. My very dear friend lost his battle with bone cancer. My heart is broken. I can't see a "Stand up to Cancer" commercial on tv without crying. I may not have been as close with him in the last few years like I would've liked, but I still loved him...everyday. The sad part is, he didn't know how much. When I say it, its not just that I love my friend...it was more than that...ever since high school...every time I saw him I thought about how I needed to tell him how I feel...including last Thursday. But I'm too quiet and I can't share my feelings openly...I'm better at writing my feelings down. It breaks my heart knowing this...sharing this. He was so young and one of the best guys I've ever met. One of the saddest parts about the whole thing is he never had the chance to get married or have kids. He would've been an excellent husband and father.....
My heart is broken.
My heart is broken.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
What is it about my life this month that just stinks?! I am very thankful for the good things that have happened this month, but for a moment let me digress...so far this month my cousin Nathan died, my Dad ended up in the hospital because he had a TIA (kind of like a mini-stroke) and has a blocked artery in his neck, then my Mom and I have to take him back to the ER because he can't breath, yesterday morning one of our cats passed away and we're not quite sure what happened, I have way too much homework, and my knee has been killing me. Now I'll reflect on some of the good...Because my cousin died we are now back in touch with my Aunt Sue and her girlfriend Rita, along with my cousin Dana, her husband, and son. Its a lot of fun getting together with them...we just hang out, laugh a lot, and this last time Rion & Dad got out their guitars and we all sang and listened to music my Grandpa used to play/sing. I also am almost done with this semester at school...woohoo! So although this month has been pretty bad, I am still counting my blessings.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Wow, its been a long, crazy, emotional, exhausting couple of weeks and its not over yet...just survived 3 days of work and still have 3 more weeks of too much homework...it didn't take long for me to become an overdramatic, overemotional, drama queen...
Friday night after work, I came home and broke down in tears because of how much my body hurt...I hate complaining about my pain because there are people worse off then me, but I'm only human and so I can only handle so much...and we were (and are) well beyond my tolerance level for pain...it sucks coming home and having my whole ankle swollen and having painful spots of inflammation on my feet, knees, and hands.
Enough about that...lets go back to Sunday and Monday of last week. Sunday I began working on a memorial video for my cousin Nathan's funeral...I worked on it from I think 7pm on Sunday until 6am on Monday...but after hearing "Don't Fear the Reaper" 100 times, I finished the video, went to bed, and got back up at 9am to get ready for the funeral. Nathan's funeral was nice, but it was really hard. The hardest part was watching my Father cry because it just makes me fall apart. I didn't know my cousin as well as I would've liked so I think what hurts the most is thinking about the memories missed getting to know him, we've been up here for 7 1/2 years and I saw him ...once...once. Too much time as been missed and too much time has been lost.
And then we end up back at the work stuff...but I'll spare all the details. Here's a few pictures and Nathan's Memorial Video for you to see...I hope you enjoy.
Here's my Dad with his sisters Diane and Sue...its been a long time since they've been together...I mean a really long time...so I was very happy to catch a couple of good, happy photos.
And finally, Nathan's video...time well spent. RIP Nathan, we love and miss you.
Other than life, its going pretty good. Almost done with this semester at MCC and then I have like a week after that until I start at Michigan's Adventure...I'm hoping to fit some video games and TV catch-up into that week. Now, if it could just be June, I'd be happy.
Friday night after work, I came home and broke down in tears because of how much my body hurt...I hate complaining about my pain because there are people worse off then me, but I'm only human and so I can only handle so much...and we were (and are) well beyond my tolerance level for pain...it sucks coming home and having my whole ankle swollen and having painful spots of inflammation on my feet, knees, and hands.
Enough about that...lets go back to Sunday and Monday of last week. Sunday I began working on a memorial video for my cousin Nathan's funeral...I worked on it from I think 7pm on Sunday until 6am on Monday...but after hearing "Don't Fear the Reaper" 100 times, I finished the video, went to bed, and got back up at 9am to get ready for the funeral. Nathan's funeral was nice, but it was really hard. The hardest part was watching my Father cry because it just makes me fall apart. I didn't know my cousin as well as I would've liked so I think what hurts the most is thinking about the memories missed getting to know him, we've been up here for 7 1/2 years and I saw him ...once...once. Too much time as been missed and too much time has been lost.
And then we end up back at the work stuff...but I'll spare all the details. Here's a few pictures and Nathan's Memorial Video for you to see...I hope you enjoy.
Here's my Dad with his sisters Diane and Sue...its been a long time since they've been together...I mean a really long time...so I was very happy to catch a couple of good, happy photos.
And finally, Nathan's video...time well spent. RIP Nathan, we love and miss you.
Other than life, its going pretty good. Almost done with this semester at MCC and then I have like a week after that until I start at Michigan's Adventure...I'm hoping to fit some video games and TV catch-up into that week. Now, if it could just be June, I'd be happy.
Monday, April 5, 2010
Special Poem
Do Not Stand at My Grave and Weep
By Mary Elizabeth Frye
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you wake in the morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
(Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there, I did not die!)
Its one of my absolute favorite poems. I want to dedicate it to my cousin, Nathan Ellis Visger, Jan 14, 1975 - Mar 31, 2010.
By Mary Elizabeth Frye
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you wake in the morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
(Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there, I did not die!)
Its one of my absolute favorite poems. I want to dedicate it to my cousin, Nathan Ellis Visger, Jan 14, 1975 - Mar 31, 2010.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
*Sigh*...What a week...
Well, this week hasn't been the definition of good...the week is finally winding down and I'm exhausted...
Today some family came over and I have to say I really enjoyed it. My Aunts, Diane and Sue, were here and it was real fun to listen to my Dad and them joke around, pick on each other, talk about picking on each other when they were younger, and talk about my Grandma. I miss my Grandma Hanes a lot, so I really, really enjoyed listening to them talk about her. Everybody talked about memories they had with Grandma, Uncle Ed, and cousin Nathan...It was a lot of fun. I'm really glad we all got together and hope we do it more often then every 5 years or so.
After all the fun at home I got to go to work. You can tell someone doesn't have a life when going to work is a welcomed break from homework. By the time the end of the night rolled around my back and legs were (and still are) KILLING me...I feel like I'm 80, no joke...I went to lay down on the floor, so Rion could pop my back, and I swear I probably looked like I was moving in slow motion. Just sitting here I have golf ball sized spots of inflammation on my feet and ankles. Oh well, just got to suck it up and deal.
Well, I'm going to head to bed...I'm sure I'll write again on Monday since I have my cousin Nathan's funeral that day...I'll need somewhere to vent.
Today some family came over and I have to say I really enjoyed it. My Aunts, Diane and Sue, were here and it was real fun to listen to my Dad and them joke around, pick on each other, talk about picking on each other when they were younger, and talk about my Grandma. I miss my Grandma Hanes a lot, so I really, really enjoyed listening to them talk about her. Everybody talked about memories they had with Grandma, Uncle Ed, and cousin Nathan...It was a lot of fun. I'm really glad we all got together and hope we do it more often then every 5 years or so.
After all the fun at home I got to go to work. You can tell someone doesn't have a life when going to work is a welcomed break from homework. By the time the end of the night rolled around my back and legs were (and still are) KILLING me...I feel like I'm 80, no joke...I went to lay down on the floor, so Rion could pop my back, and I swear I probably looked like I was moving in slow motion. Just sitting here I have golf ball sized spots of inflammation on my feet and ankles. Oh well, just got to suck it up and deal.
Well, I'm going to head to bed...I'm sure I'll write again on Monday since I have my cousin Nathan's funeral that day...I'll need somewhere to vent.
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