Close to giving up...

Sometimes I hate being an adult. Remember the days when you were in school, your friends were all there, you didnt have to worry about bills or other adult stuff. Sometimes I miss those days. The days when I could just hang out with my friends at school and they didnt live far enough away that I didnt ever see them. I miss the days when I didnt have to worry about if my car payment or cell phone payment were going to be made on time...if at all. Sometimes I miss my Mercury Cougar...the one I paid for in cash and didnt have to worry about a monthly car payment for 33 months. If I were smart I would've saved money and paid to get it fixed, instead of trading it in. Time goes by so fast...sometimes I'm happy I'm an adult...I'm 20 years old, I can do what I want when I want, I can stay up til 3 in the morning or stay up all night. I'm not saying I don't love my life...cuz I do but I miss my friends, they keep blowing me off, I'm lonely altogether. Sometimes I would give anything to go back 3 or 4 years...but I'll stay here, in the end of 2008, wishing I could spend more time having fun then worrying about bills.