The other day I was upset about being let down by one of my best friends and thought to myself...

"What is it about me that attracts the hurt of not having a true best friend? It seems like no matter what, I'm left with the knowledge that my friends only need me when it seems good for them. I know people get busy and they have their own lives, but true best friends make time, and it seems like it’s just not in the cards for me. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one that makes time for my friends. These are the same friends that call me cause they need to talk, but never call me any other time. I automatically try to find the good in people, but only a percentage actually turn out good. Is it this trust why I get hurt so often? If not, then why do I get hurt so much? I've come to the conclusion that it’s easier to stay at home, thinking about how lonely I am & missing my best friends, rather than going out and getting hurt. My loneliness is bringing me the edge of insanity and I don't know what to do to break the curse."

...And although I do still kind of feel this way, I need to remember, even if it's hard, that "it's better to give than to receive", "it's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all", etc.

Hopefully everything will get better soon.