Close to giving up...

Sometimes I hate being an adult. Remember the days when you were in school, your friends were all there, you didnt have to worry about bills or other adult stuff. Sometimes I miss those days. The days when I could just hang out with my friends at school and they didnt live far enough away that I didnt ever see them. I miss the days when I didnt have to worry about if my car payment or cell phone payment were going to be made on time...if at all. Sometimes I miss my Mercury Cougar...the one I paid for in cash and didnt have to worry about a monthly car payment for 33 months. If I were smart I would've saved money and paid to get it fixed, instead of trading it in. Time goes by so fast...sometimes I'm happy I'm an adult...I'm 20 years old, I can do what I want when I want, I can stay up til 3 in the morning or stay up all night. I'm not saying I don't love my life...cuz I do but I miss my friends, they keep blowing me off, I'm lonely altogether. Sometimes I would give anything to go back 3 or 4 years...but I'll stay here, in the end of 2008, wishing I could spend more time having fun then worrying about bills.

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When life gives you lemons...

So everything was going good. I'm getting my unemployment, getting everything taken care of for me to go to college, but of course my life can't be complete without a big basket of bad lemons...

My Dad lost his job on the first day of the month. Its sad because its right before Christmas...and I'm not sad for me because I don't really care about getting anything for Christmas, but for my sisters its really sad. Now my sister Amanda isn't going to the Christmas Dance at the high school this saturday and she's upset about that, even though we keep telling her she can go. And more than likely my sister Kristina won't be fazed by the issue until Christmas day. I don't know what we're going to do because we have 2 litters of puppies coming in the next few weeks, I have all my bills to pay this month and don't know how I'm going to do that, and my parents have their bills to pay and we don't know how they're going to afford that. I don't know how we're going to do it all. Plus I miss all my friends...I have two best friends that live in Mexico, one friend that lives in Hart, and one that lives in Grand Rapids. But it is a good thing that I have my best friend Shannon only a couple miles away...I don't know what I would do without her.

Again life has given us lemons and I don't know how we're going to afford to make lemonade. We'll see how we can handle everything but for now I have to find a way to save Christmas for my sisters and afford my bills. If only life were meant to be simple...

Finally getting something done....

So I've finally registered for classes at MCC after 2 years of being out of high school. I'm excited that I will finally be doing something with my life besides working full time. As sad as it is that Double JJ closed and as much as I miss my friends from there...them closing has given me room to do something better and more productive. Hopefull I'll stick to my guns and make it through. And its nice to know that I finally got my unemployment and I don't have to be so stressed. Here's to finally getting something done.....

Too much time around home...

I am spending too much time around home...mostly in Whitehall. My daily list of things to do is:

• Drop my mom off at work.
• Go to Michigan Works to look for jobs.
• Go to the library to look for jobs again.
• Do any running around my mom wants me to.
• Pick up my mom from work.
• Pick up my sisters from school.
• Go home
• And be tortured for the rest of the evening.

I am tired of doing the same old stuff day in and day out. Even working the same job at Double JJ day in and day out wasnt this boring, at least I had grown-ups to talk to. The bonus of not working is my cat Salem is very, very happy his mommy is home so much and I'm not missing any of my TV shows. If I was getting my unemployment all this time, I would go down to Lansing to visit my family and friends down there and I would go to Grand Rapids to visit my friend Chasya. And I hope only seeing my best friends once a month won't last long. But without unemployment I have no money, and without money I have no where to go. I hope I get my unemployment or a job soon. I can't take much more of my sisters bickering and whining from 2:30 til they go to bed at night. I'll just keep hoping something good will come along, besides going back to school.